we all make mistakes.
but do we recognize them?
do they weigh in your stomach?
do they break your heart?
we put ourselves in these situations,
But do not know how to react.
clouded judgments and denial.
Denial...maybe i need help. maybe i need a therapist. maybe.
i don't know.
i am so much weaker than people perceive me to be.
weaken, mislead and confused.
sometimes i imagine myself..more perfect.
then you know..something happens...and it shows me,
i'm still just that stupid scared girl in
day after day
year after year.
the infliction of pain and heartache,
the bond of trust and friendship over in a second.
words are strong and powerful things.
masochistic by nature.
theses things i say,
these things i do.
i don't understand.
i will never understand.