uneasiness

sometimes i wonder,
where will today end

i lose contorl over my emotions a lot lately.
i'm such a big mess.
it's embarrassing.

i wake up only hoping,
dreaming,
today is a new day.
today will be better.

only to be in a worse position by nightfall.

sundown only brings uneasiness.

normalcy

http://evymcc.tumblr.com/post/15412845977/an-endless-pursuit-of-searching-for-a-feeling-of

feeling through the pain

http://evymcc.tumblr.com/post/16182921575/i-got-chills-when-i-stumbled-upon

a discovery

sometimes we discover things about ourselves
a little too late
its that belated-ness that makes us doubt
makes us wonder if we can really actually do this

life in real time

and in the end
living, breathing...
remembering.
tragic and in a frenzy
unhealthy, unstable
what does everything mean?
if i live and i feel,
if i breathe and dream
what does that mean?
i have been feeling,
dreaming nightmares.
like they were life in real time.
heart racing,
pulse quickened.
tears awaken,
my sleep.